I don't even know what to think anymore. I just wanna enjoy life, but the thoughts that float in my head continue to depress me. I don't know what to do exactly. I kind of want to cry my eyes out and just curl up.

I breathe in and nothing comes.
I cry, but nothing falls..
I hurt, but nothing happens...
And In all of this non-existence...
I live.

I don't really wanna type out a freakin' essay and spill these un-spilled tears, but god damn I'm so fkin confused. You don't even know. I'm not sure anymore what exactly I'm suppose to do.

I'm accepting the unacceptable...
I'm holding on to the one person I love the most...
How can I be so important?
How can I be the most important?
I feel like i've been pushed into the water...
And I'm dying slowly.

What I'm accepting is something that shouldn't be accepted. I shouldn't take that kind of stuff. I should rise above it and not care. I should just walk away.

I'm walkin' this path...
Looking ahead to what might be promising.
Once again I see two roads..
Once again I see a fork...
Once again I'm lost....

I would just walk away, but I'm held down. They are gentle but they aren't at the same time. The cruelty of it all. FUCK.

As I walk, these hands encircle...
Pulling me..
Against a warm back...
This comforting warmth..
I can't escape...
I don't want to escape...
I want to bask in this warmth...
Take me away...

I'm standing out in the rain, and what the fuck. I notice that this is all mother fucking deja vu all over again. Jeezus. Anyway, I can't cry, but the rain cries for me. It feels my pain.

The rain falls down...
Its drops caressing my face...
Its love..
Its pain..
Its agony
Its happiness..
Raining down on me...

Whoo My English final has to be the best final ever!!!! XD

No I’m not crazy.. lol.. My english final given to me by my wonderful English teacher is whatever. I can make a poem book or something like that. It's whatever you wanna do. Just as long as it's a project showing how literature has effected the world today and yeaaah... lol yeaH i like this project. Probably going to find a place in the whole thing to play ddr infront of the class again mwahhaha ^_^

Later

You know sometimes.. when you try to escape the world you feel like breaking down and crashing everything around you. You push everything back hoping that it won't catch up to you. Yeah that's kind of how i felt today for a bit. Till like lunch. Lol Lunch was just weird.. really really weird.. but that's okay.. i'm cool with that.. *sigh*

Sometimes i look at myself and wonder, what do the people around me that like me and care see in me... what about me makes me so damn special...when i do nothing to deserve their attention. Maybe i'm thinking to hard again right? I have no idea now...

Somehow i just want to look up at a sky that's not clouded by gray clouds..

Yay i've put in today! Today was good too though cause i felt happy and my day didn't got bad and my dad actually sounded like he cared about my day for once. Today's turning out pretty good.. It's just.. Hm.. what do you do.. when you feel like you're feeling alone....

OH well Lol decided to make one thanks to Holly lol ^_^ anyway.. yeah I like writing poetry and making graphics so whoo ^_^ lol later

-Ky